We leaped across rocky ledge-parts,
seeking a secret veil of water
shadowed in sacred Yellowstone.
Camping together, we huddled against
cruel cold that caught
ice-barren wasteland winds.
Watching whirling air,
we saw dusted devils blow through
deep-carved canyons.
They howled their coyote
wistful-throated wails
past red-rock sandstone.
We climbed weighty slabs of slated
rocks in layered creek-carved labyrinths,
betraying eons of earth.
Bones of living things lay there,
long interred before
the birth of human minds.
I had never witnessed the West before,
and he showed me its
wild-edged ways.
In college, we laughed
with our women and other friends.
The ladies smiled,
and some men fought
or marched in dour defiance.
Learned ones stood
before us and taught strange,
tortured histories
of tarnished, vanished times.
We wasted days and drank,
listening to music loud,
lusty and luminous.
Running mental courses
through restless thoroughfares,
our sprinting spirits drifted.
Yet, they lifted upward and proud
together.
In later life, we parted,
picking pathways
distant and drained
of precious things we prized before.
He called it “God’s country”
where he stayed, our home,
but I strayed far
from Tennessee.
Visits and talks
grew fewer and fell to none.
Finally strangers to one another,
we quieted ever more
until no voice could cross
the void between us.
Late in nights’ long sleeplessness,
I thought of him at times,
seeking but finding no solace
in his absence.
A spirit lay beside me,
whispering wondrous tales
of sweet sequestered places
where we ran as one before.
Younger, fonder days paraded
dusty, down through darkened hours.
Restless remembrances
skewed out like skeletons
from fallen coffins.
My thoughts conjured friends and fun
as if from far-off planets lost,
where younger suns shone bright
on seas’ forgotten shores.
At last, the moon set black
within that seared-looking
barren space before dawn.
Its face revealed failed remnants
of a faded firmament
pushed far
beyond my grasp.
News came to me he was gone.
I paused to hear a shutting door
sound solemn far within me.
His smile would be no more,
nor would I know his voice again.
A flame went dark,
and blindness
sealed the snake-like passage ways
that pierced those far-flung
reckless, roaming years.
That same fire left me too,
and only an aching stayed,
reminding me of an empty place,
something in my gut
now ripped away.
Numbness and pain
thrashed within,
as if a spinal sprain’s convulsion
spread throughout my limbs.
Just the knowing
was like a torrential mudslide,
dragging needed highways
downhill deep into crushed
and crumbled dirt.
Today I recall a still-hidden
waterfall, rushing clear and coursing
down a cliffside.
Two men beheld it then,
testifying to its tender,
white-graced tracery.
Waters welled into a misted gorge
and filled a glassy bright,
light-crested pool
forever pure and free.
In dreams I drink there,
bathing naked, aware of
things those hollows keep
from everyone else.
Staying long in sentinel shadows,
I rest alone.